NIKe BAIZURA ~ 2nd January 1988

"It was a day after new year 1988.
I cant wait,I have to see
what the world has to offer me"

I guessed that's what my daughter would have told herself when I was heavily pregnant with her inside my body. During the stage of my pregnancy,everybody were very concerned and gave all their love to me maklum lah anak bongsu yang nak melahirkan anak sulung.My hubby helped a lot and my mom would cook all kinds of dishes and packed for me.

We moved into our own apartment somewhere in December 1987. Since there are no furnitures except one mattress and two pillows,2 mugs and 2 plates ( all the presents that we received for our wedding are still kept at my mom's place ) We decided to make a kenduri doa selamat on the 2nd January 1988. I was 9th month pregnant and my body was huge...I walk slowly and everything I do was in a slow motion. So both me and my hubby went around the neighbourhood inviting them for our kenduri. My mom,dad,sis and bro and the rest of the gang helped peparing for the dishes at mom's home.

Since I am The special women,Iwas treated by mom like a princess ( at that time masih muda and lawa lagi...kooot) She prepare food for me and bring it upstairs so that I could eat..sedapnye..nasi minyak,kerutuk ayam and dalca.I makan the kenduri food and sebagai tukang rasa...hehehe. around noon I felt like urinating...but tak sempat nak ketandas there was so many water came out. I called my mom and when she saw me...she said it is time...your Air Mentuban dah broke..apa lagi...

Biasanye when a women dah dekat nak bersalin they would always prepare a basket full of kelengkapan nak bersalin in the car so that when it comes to emergency like this we are well prepared.

So..hubby took me to Clinic Roopee (accompanied by my sis and sis-in-law)...and around 7.30pm waktu maghrib maka lahirlah NIK BAIZURA BINTI MOHD BAUZI.

Dirumah ku ketika itu mom,dad and bro ( ketiga-tiga pun dah arwah dan yang paling kukasihi )became the host for our kenduri doa selamat masuk rumah baru dan kenduri doa selamat dapat anak sulung sekali...hehehe selamat selamat...tuan rumah berada dihospital menyambut orang baru...

I tickled Baizura"s tiny toes as I recited a nursery rhyme. Her round pink cheeks drew quickly upward,emphasizing the laughter that gurgled from her throat.

I kissed her chubby neck and whispered in her ear,making her smile."Someday you will have rings on your fingers and bells on your toes.Smile if you must,baby girl,but I never intend to let you know about anything but the best. No waiting tables for you. No dropping out of school until you have a degree from the best college. I want you to be somebody.You are special".

Tears dimmed my eyes as I talked to my baby girl. I didn't know how I would do it,but I would do it and she would emerge from this second rate existence to a respectable way of life. Not necessarily with money,not lots and lots of money, but I did want her to to be educated so she would be able to earn a decent living. I didn't want her to work hard as hard as I had. No..I was going to see to it that it never happened to my child.

Tika ini illusi penantian sudah berakhir..sewaktu kelahiran dimuka bumi ini,melihat dunia yang serba dihiasi keindahan,maka terfikir sejenak..apakah esok atau lusa maseh ada masa buat sikecil ini...bakal menjadi wanita teragung?...menjadi pemimpin yang termasyur?

Now,looking back through the initial years...Nik Baizura has becoming a women. Twenty Two years old today with her own vision and mission to succeed in her life to becoming an Architect.

My Dear child...sometime in life you may have drove on the rough road and making the wrong turn..therefore..live your life to the fullest..HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweeeeet 22 ...it has passed your curfew hours....hehehe ...We can't be with you always but we will be there for you as always......

ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU...ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU...ALLAH SELAMATKAN...........

NIKe BAIZURA..

ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU....

THE CHANGE OF LIFE

There was nothing like Tuesday - looking forward to The Biggest Loser Asia unless it was Sunday leading up to the last week of school holiday and NEW YEAR... NEW YEAR...

I'm having the change of life..."M" is a natural part of growing older.No wonder I have all the kind of symptoms that I've never had before...hmmmm

~2009~

2009 is coming to a close. Reviewing the year with THE GOODS,THE BADS AND THE UGLY. Now the wraparounds....

January ~ March 2009

$ Everyone is facing difficult times as the impact of the financial crisis severely affected the world throughout this year.The whole family and some of our friends are tightening our belt.

$ Got a lot of space on my own at home in physical and symbolic context.

$ meeting old friends from work at an old friends children's wedding.

$ Son got a place in SMT Gombak inclusive boarding.Alhamdulilah.Thank you Allah,Thank you Allah.For the past years we've been saying goodbye to our dearest eldest daughter (3years in MRSM Grik and 2years in MRSM Jasin)and there were 3 of us in the car waving goodbye to her and holding our tears ( but we could not hold)..but on that particular day (23rd Feb)we are waving goodbye to our youngest son pulak. Itu pun nasib baik dekat aje...Gombak...hehehe Thought I could holdback my tears but unfortunately...I can't.As much as I've tried so hard...but I can't. Hubby's trying to distract my focus by talking about other things, topic that are not relevant at all but the tears keep coming out...

$ It's a lesson for me and hubby to equip ourselves.Both our children have to leave us one day..to spread their wings...alahai...

$ (18th March )Hubby was admitted for asthma and gastric ( ingat itu le penyakitnye) at Damai for he no longer could not stands the pain .Tak boleh tidur dan senantiasa lapar (every night I have to temankan dia pergi minum and makan capati at Rawang Tin aku jugak yang naik berat badan wehh)..when the doctor check it was heart problem.

April ~ June 2009

$ Since hubby did not use the car,I drove to the nearest government clinic.Oh my God,there were so many people waiting to see a doctor. Well since I'm there and nothing to do at home might as well take a number and do a check up.Paid a ringgit and received no 124. Many people complaining about the government staff services but I disagree. From the first step I enter the door the nurses to the medical officers,they were polite and kind.No shouting or rough treatments to patients and the attitudes were soothing. And I'm now an additional registered government patient...Good!and I have to say..it's the Rawang Government Clinic..

$ visited a friend at a hospital in KL.She's ok..The main issue here is...when a women in pain they have to suffer alone.Even going to the clinic or when expecting results to be taken. Theres not even a sympathetic notes in the men's voice..uncarring..tsk..tsk...

$ Alhamdulilah my daughter dearest received a place in UTM Skudai and USM Penang.It's quite difficult for her to make a decision but then again, from the very beginning her heart was always there at UTM.If she were given a choice she would have chosen both places...but unfortunately...she can't...She believes she could fly ...hehehe

July ~ September 2009

$ (2nd July) Hubby did angiogram..Alhamdulilah no blockage but it seems the valve was leaking.

$ Went fishing at Pulau Indah till 0600hrs.First time got Lucky I caught 2 ekor of ikan senangin sebesar lengan Alhamdulilah...and hubby caught kerapu..

$ Attending Baizura's graduation day at Skudai...hmmm tak banyak dapat ambil gambar sebab hubby demam nak cepat-cepat balik KL.Sorry girl nanti graduate for your degree we hope we will be there in a different kind of situation ya lebih sihat and lebih meriah InsyaAllah.

$ Hubby bought viva for her daughter's graduation day and I could only afford to give her a bouquet of flower...

$ Ramadhan....

October ~ December 2009

$ Checked into Putra Jaya Shangrila Hotel. Took time out to revive my body and soul.Very often we tend to be too hard on ourself and today is the perfect day for a little bit of pampering. A soak in the bath tub..hehehe and a massage?? dinner in room? oh really....we both have a great time. Thanks to Imtiaz for the most expensive birthday present to me and hubby...We will always treasured the kindness you've given us and may the Almighty Allah blessed you and your family..

$ Celebrate Hari Raya as usual dikampung halaman hubby.Entah le...tak meriah langsung this year...I am not going to write anything about it here but those who knows...everyone were very unhappy...worst Raya celebration of the year.....

$ Hubby did his mitral valve repaired (6 weeks MC)and Alhamdulilah he is getting better. He could walk more than 3 km now and I am happy.He'll be back to work as usual in January just a couple more days to go....

$ Aidil's got his motorbike licence and moving freely not afraid of the policemen.

$ Baizura's lost his handphone on the day she went out to the movie with her bro (Aidil) but hubby promise to buy her a new one for her upcoming birthday ( it has to be belated )

$ Looking back at the chronology of events this year... we are doing just fine..and...okay..Allah nak uji..Alhamdulilah..Alhamdulilah...we look forward to 2010 with a better life and much blessings.We thanked our FAMILY and our FRIENDS for their prayer, our NEIGHBOURS yang menziarah and given us the kind support and to SEH MALAYSIA for everything....MAY GOD BLESSED ALL OF US...

Why did you do what you did?

I don't know...it just happens..that's why.You cant judge people,I know.For example I dislike MAWI and whenever his face came on TV I just change the channel,habis cerita.If his song aired in the radio,I changed the frequency..habis cerita.

My hubby and son would ask me why I dislike MAWI.What have he done to me that I recent him.Well to those yang menyampah kat dia will know why..I dont need to tell..habis cerita.

Many people try to fit into places that's not for them...berlagak tak bertempat kata setengah orang..well...I'd rather do what I did...habis cerita...

Dah maghrib dah...gi semaye dulu..kang sambung balik...

I'm glad and thankful to those that created the BLOG.Eversince I came across reading some wonderful writings in it I felt like this is it..this is the place where we could write anything at all. About our life,our love,our friends and our imagination...Thank you....to my daughter for teaching me how...thank you so much.

I took a break from my social life and spending quality time with my children and hubby. I found it is more important at the moment.It's priority one.I'm mindful about accepting any invitation. I've lived all my life with wonderful memories and if ALLAH were to take me and if it's time to leave this wonderful world,wonderful memories...I'm ready..

Now..what makes I said that. Last night we received a call from an old friend/neighbour.Their daughter passed away.Sadly she was only 12yrs old..when we visited the family,they were in grief and in pain.It will take sometime to heal the lost of your love ones.

Married couples were blessed with children but some being married for many years did not or could not have children but God gave them something else.

Everything we have in life is temporary and THAT we have to accept it.

TO REMEMBER OR TO FORGET?

SSome said we must always remember!but I think it's better to forget! If you remember the past..the unnerving past...you'll be angry. The wound would breaks open and no degree of surgery could heal.

You have no choice do you?You can't ran away from the past because it will always be there...haunting you...

Have you seen yourself in the mirror lately?..oh my God...really really look at yourself in the mirror...ishk..ishk...ishk...better to TRY to forget what you've just seen.....huhuhuhuhu

SHORTCUTS TO HAPPINESS

When people are desperate,they tends to react beyond the ordinary.But it's good to have someone to remind you. No, you cant do that, it's wrong..yes,you can do it..it's not against the law..blah..blah..blah..like writing an essay on humanity,on life,environment or on LOVE...you just wrote...cursively on a piece of paper.

My mind is somewhere else today,I just lost a good friend.No..not because she passed away but she's no longer my good friend.I grieve for whatever happen to us.Everything happened so quickly and unexpected.We've been in and out of friendship for a very long time but it always end up great.There's no war of words between us..but someone pushed her too hard and she could not stand still any longer.

I thought being successful makes her happy or happier..but no...its not!

I'm sorry..if I've done anything wrong to you,for being your good friend and the closest among others...I'm sorry.

ENGAGEMENTS AND WEDDINGS

On the 8th Dec my kak long called and asked whether I nak ikut dia pergi rombongan meminang.So I asked my hubby and my children yang ada dirumah masih bercuti nie whether they wanted to go and when everyone agrees I told my sister okay we will follow (kena follow gak sebab yang nak bertunang tu anak kak long) tak pergi kang kocik hati eh...

The first thing I asked my kak long "kena pakai baju kurung ke?"she said tak perlu...bukannya ape...I am the type maybe one in a million Malaysian women out there yang tak suka berbaju kurung.Tak selesa dan I tak suka you...

So on the 12th Dec I took the INITIATIVE to at least pakai baju kurung kedah and jeans ah!! at least..at least...but my daughter bising katanya when comes to her I forced her to wear kurung or kebaya but to yourself sempoi aje...hehehehe mak tak feminie girl..nak wat camna..

Engagement zaman sekarang nie terlalu banyak berbeza dari zaman dulu ( zaman I lah)banyak dah berubah alahai...yang mengikut rombongan pun ramai hari tu..jiran-jiran kak long baik-baik belaka. Abang Hamid mewakili keluarga berbalas pantun lagi..Time management pun bagus..1100hrs keluar dari rumah kak long sampai dirumah bakal pengantin pun on scheduled as scheduled.Yang tak sedapnye...satu aje...my hubby's Rio always dibelakang.Almaklum le nak kejar kereta-kereta yang high powered tak terkejar kami..but everything went smoothly...Alhamdulilah.

Bercerita pasal baju kurung nie..just imagine berapa banyak baju kurung you need to have in your wardrobe?Kalau wanita2 yang bekerja in the govenment sector probably they need to wear baju kurung or kebaya.Ada pulak tu kalau baju kuning,kasut tingginye pun kuning dan beg tangan pun kuning mak oi... mak oi.. but in the private sector like I was before, pakai uniform jadi tak perlu wardrobe penuh dengan baju kurung.Buuuut..bila ada jemputan kahwin..dan yang dijemput pun orang yang sama jugak..yang kenal satu sama lain berbaju kurung kenalah pakai yang lain-lain..kalau tidak kang (kalau masuk facebook)aikk si TZR tu kenduri rumah sianu hari tu sama color bajunye ...kenduri sipolanpun sama jugak..dah kena kata lah pulak..kalau takde barang kemas lagi depe mengata aku.Nak buat macam mana dah memang aku nie jenis yang tak suka pakai barang kemas mengerlip mengerlap..rimas dik..rimas...Allergy giteww..

Tu sebab I dont care if any of my relatives or friends tak jemput to their kenduri because I will not be susah hati nak pileh baju apa nak pakai. Lagi satu I'm very particular on Time Management. If in the kad jemputan tulis makan 1200 - 4.00pm maknanye pukul 1200 tu dah siap buffetnye...some kenduri yang I pergi dah dekat pukul 1 tengahari tak siap lagi.

Hari minggu nie ada kenduri dirumah makcik Kiah..alahai...To explode or to implode,it's probably healthier to let it out..

TWITTER?

A friend asked why now only you want to write in the blog. Well the reason being..I'm a slow learner and am scared to click here and there ( what if I clicked wrongly? )if it's fast forward fine...I could catch up but what if it's reversed? oh dear... just like HjH Esah Blog (the first Blog I read and love it ever since)at one time I could not open her blog but the next day Hjh Esah wrote she mistakenly click something and everyone could not open her blog it seems it seems..... and I have to wait for my children to be at home to teach me how...a bit slow..yes..but a fast learner too...yes...

Just learned about Blogging now another words came out "TWITTER" and what's that? I came across the word while watching the Desperate Housewives...hmmmhmmm still have to learn more..at this age? alamak....cant stop learning yeah!!

COUNTRY ROAD..TAKE ME HOME

Driving around the "country road" the other day has left us with a shocking view. Quite sad actually.There used to be streams along the G's old road thru' the beautiful jungle where we stopped for a deep if the weather's hot..but now..sadly to say it has becoming exactly what The Counting Crows ( Big Yellow Taxi) sung in that song.

They paved paradise put up a parking lot,
with a pink hotel,a boutique,and a swingin hot spot
Dont it always seems to go
That you dont know what you got till it's gone

They took all the trees,and put them in a tree museum
and they charged the people a dollar and a half to see them..

THEY PAVED PARADISE AND PUT UP A PARKIN' LOT....

FOOD

What happens in the house stays in the house.Wah! cam what happens in vegas stays in vegas lah pulak..hehe

This morning we went out for breakfast 4 beranak.Since anak dara dah nak balik campus and anak teruna cuti pun dah dekat nak habis...there's no any other way than to spend time with them selain dari MAKAN together.We went to BB ( Bukan Bukit Bintang ) but Bukit Beruntung..mana lagi kalau tidak ke Restoran Manja..all types of pantai timur's food ada disini.

Pas makan we singgah at the BB's pasar..hubby kata nak cari siput nak masak lomak cili api..mak oii ada otak2,sata,pulut panggang,gado2 fuuyoh...kalau dah di bungkus dalam daun pisang dan aromanya yang semerbak tu..buat perut tu lapar lah balik...pada hal baru aje breakfast.....

Camana nak jadi biggest loser nie...asyik makan aje...alahai..the trouble is ....kalau sipenjual tu mulutnya manis..senyuman nya melirik-lirik..apa lagi....tak nak beli pun kena beli dah...

Menzahirkan senyuman yang manis di pagi hari mengatur cara dengan berkesan sekali...sesungguhnya...senyuman itu menyenangkan hati nurani..hm..hm..

TWO STUBBORN PEOPLE

Tension that has been building up between T's and L's family are likely to erupt in the most unexpected manner...life is my dear adinda...is unpredictable.

Jumping to conclusions..instead of talking things over to see what went wrong...very stubborn indeed.Now that's going to be two less lonely people in the world..hehehe

MY HUBBY

I'm feeling rather bored today. Hubby suggested fishing. No,not just yet hubby dear. You need to take it easy coz you're still on MC. Half of your breast being cut open and it needs healing....aND QUICKLY ..so that you could go back to work.

It's not going to be a smooth ride at home today.All that I've planned seems to be changing as the day progresses, hopefully I could accommodate the disruptions and interruptions....

Since hubby's at home...it's time for him to review some things he may be taking for granted especially ON ME.

Just mentioned last night about SIL daughter yang belajar tak habis dah nak kahwin.Belum sempatlah SIL tu nak merasai kebahagiaan and in today's NST a story about a malay girl elope with an indonesian man 12 years ago all because of madly deeply in love with that guy..and she was only 17yrs old at that time ( entah SPM ) sempat buat ke tidak.

Her story should serve as a lesson to all Malaysian girls ( that goes the same to both my children ). Think not only once or twice but to THINK!!!before doing..running.paksaing ( new words lah nie )with the one they love. Uncertain future!!! kalau elope dengan orang yang berada pun belum tentu senang gak...apa-apa pun biarlah ikut turutan alam..ikut adat...ikut rukun negara..rukun islam..rukun imaan..dan segala rukun yang ada...

Dengar ceritanye anak perempuan SIL nie having A WAR OF WORDS dengan SIL kesian SIL nie...she's hurt...

If today you do something wrong to others,tomorrow others will do something wrong to your family or even worst.May ALLAH blessed us all...

BELUM SEMPAT MERASA

Well..here we go again. One thing after another issue came..kesian my SIL..dulunye yang lelaki buat hal tak mahu belajar jenuh omaknye suruh sambung belajar agar jadi orang. At least could help himself if it is not to help the mother to ease her burden for all the sufferings she had to endured when her 1st hubby divorced her.Bringing up her children alone is not easy at that time.3 small Children..children...

Now yang sulung pulak buat hal...belajar pun belum habis dah nak kahwin...kesian SIL... BELUM SEMPAT MERASA pucuk dan ubi kayu yang ditanam...

Now..dont get me wrong..of course dah jadi tanggungjawab parents to give their children education,food on the table, clothes to wear and place to live dah memang OBLIGATION but..takkan tak mahu merasai belanja anak2 from their first paid salary..at least dinner ke...baju ke...novels ke...alahai..children...children....

SECRETS OF THE PAST AND PRESENT

Just a few days ago my daughter asked me "mum do you have any secrets in your life?" but of course...I have secrets..I do. Everyone has secrets. Its completely normal. Secrets could be categorised in so many things,in so many ways. It could be good,it could be bad..bad things should be kept ziiiping closed kapuh...because tis a bad secret it is dark...something that cant be shared with anyone and no one...

TERINGAT ZAMAN DULU PART 2

I was born a kelantanese 49 yrs ago...Alhamdulilah still bernafas walaupun kekadang terasa semputnye..I would say I'm still okay because some friends of the same age as mine has so much health problems..InsyaAllah I hope and pray dapat tengok anak-anak berjaya dalam kehidupan pun dah kira okay lah tu..

3 years ago my daughter got a place to study architecture at UTM,Jalan Semarak.It's been awhile we've never came crossing to that area. I was raised in MINDEF and that very same university, PULAPOL (Pusat Latihan Polis)was there eversince..The boys scouts and girls guides camping ground was no more there ( they've changed it to Selera Semarak ).The swimming Pool pun dah takde dah... my first primary school (RRRS) Rifle Range Road School was still there after which we were transfered to Sek Ren Jen Keb Inggeris,Jalan Padang Tembak satu just opposite the road to make do with the increasing of population. Mana taknye..anak-anak tentera..anak-anak polis aje dah hampir penuh satu sekolah...Apalah khabarnye cikgu Som ( guru agama ).I'm one of the student educated in a multi racial English school after merdeka.

Dulu..we can just walk freely aje dan rasa dekat pulak tu from one place to another. Rasanye ada shortcuts everywhere to reach Datuk Keramat,Kampung Baru and hot springs, setapak.Tapi sekarang nie...rasa macam jauh lah pulak.

One shop that was still there (behind UTM)is kedai Ah Tong. I'm not sure whether Boh is still leaving at the same place or becoming a businessman as he always said he wanted to be when he grew up (those were the days).

Those days ( 1967-1972 Primary)when the school held sports day, all parents came. I was in Rumah Hang Tuah (yellow)AGAKNYE...ada perbarisan lagi you... and everyone took part. Very enjoyable. We love all our teachers (although) some were garang but their garang is not the kind that could create hatred...teachers and students could sit under one roof with greater interaction among us in a "cool" and presentable manner.

Those were the days...those were the days...

TERINGAT ZAMAN DULU...

SCORPIONS..scorpions...Learn to live and let live,iye ke? cerita pasal learn to live nie...teringat aku semasa muda remaja gitew..iya lah, anak bongsu dari entah keberapa punye keturunan..my mother ( dah arwah ) punye le pandai memasak.Just mention ape aje you nak makan she'll do it.Nasi dagang,nasi kerabu,nasi berlauk,laksam, kueh jala emas,puteri mandi..badak berendam..mak oii dengan kesejapan aje dah siap..tapi itu lah..bila dah besar nie (dah tua bangka dan beranak dua) bukan tak cuba belajar camana nak buat semua tu..tapi dah cuba..tak pernah menjadi...kalau kerutuk lagi lah...my children and their father yang suka jadi batu api tu akan cakap tak sedap lah..kurang itu lah..kurang ini lah...so the conclusion is...bila rasa nak makan kerutuk and nasi dagang (musim raya aje)kami kerumah kak long AND kak ipar.

kalau terasa nak makan pada hari-hari biasa kami jalan-jalan dikampung baru ke..di gombak kedai kak anie ke...atau sekarang nie dah jumpa port baru dibukit beruntung ada satu restoran namanye MANJA wooi dia punya masakan kelate boleh tahanlah jugak..so to kelantanese yang tak jumpa atau masih belum jumpa kedai makan yang menjual masakan pantai timur..cubalah...

CHILDREN..AGAIN

Two days ago both my children asked permission to go to the movie to watch THE MOON. Well since both were on holiday..why not..and it seems that the PC fair is on at the KLCC you just have to let your children go although you would know that it would be crowded with people...and so it is..something happen to my dear daughter...her phone missing...dont know where..could it be in the commuter..pick pockets are everywhere..kesiiiaaaan dia..kena tunggu allowance bulan depan le...baru boleh beli yang baru. Tsk.tsk..tsk..tersangatlah kesian...

CHILDREN (Part 2)

Lessons learnt from my past mistakes makes me grow wiser.Dah 49yrs old dah pun...and so children....

Learning is and always has been a continuos process and you shall seek the KNOWLEDGE not just from the 4 corner of the earth ..but also from anything around you.

It's only 8.30pm but my eyes started to shut down.Got to sleep..

CHILDREN

Anak2 zaman dulu adalah satu amanah. But anak-anak zaman sekarang ini adalah satu pelaburan..oh my God.Children..children...belajar itu bukan satu masaalah..tapi satu kewajipan EVEN if you grew older you still have to learn. It would ends when you sleeps and never woke up...

Entah kenapa jiwa ini terasa jiwang lah pulak..Bilamana kita melihat kekurangan orang lain baru kita sedar kita ini bernasiib baik..biarpun bukan banyak baiknya tapi masih bernasiiib baaiik.

When my son told me that he wanted to stop schooling and get a job to help the family...( it starts when his father was in the hospital )I waas sooo afraid (he's only in form 4). I felt that my children is against me...my daughter said she could get a job ( she has a diploma )they both were afraid if and if and if..what if..what if....what if...there are so many questions and I tried to answer in a diplomatic ways..I told them it would be this..it would be that...it could be this...it could be that...I know that they both are concerned...although after much discussions and conclusions...I told them for a start...if both of you want to help..I would cut your monthly allowances....THERE!! I rest my case.

I'm sure all parents think alike.We want what's best for our children.We want to see them becoming someone better than we did. If we were a nobody at least our children is a somebody.

Children...give youself a chance to proof that you're worthy.Expect the worst in life but always prayed for the best.

AND THAT is CALLED LOVE

Seeing a smile on her face yesterday morning when I told her that I cooked tom yam...I know...she's happy. For almost three weeks now eversince her semester break she haven't touch any rice..Imtiaz said let her eat more protein and less carbo...OKAY...she did that..but she did not loose even a kg. This morning she weigh in..and it's more than the original weight...she looked frustrating. Sorry girl...We have to do this for ourselves if we could not be the biggest loser, we could at least be healthier...have faith yeah...